A Simple Gurl

i'm just a simple gurl .... i put my hair in a ponytail .. i blush and get shy when you look at me ... i'm fragile ... thats why i stay away ... so no-one could ever hurt me ... i know the meaning of luv , but i never felt it ... i just hope that one day i would be noticed .... not as the gurl next door , nor as a good friend ... i wish you would see me as the gurl you wanna give the ring to

Hanaa Al-Gawish

Damn True

Those are just some quotes i personally wrote

You keep expect me to be a super hero while I'm just human .... How Am I expected to help you , when I'm barley standing .... and just remember even if I'm your hero .... Even heroes have the rite to bleed ... sometimes i do cry , fall upon my knees 

Have you ever wondered why the acoustic version of any song is somehow deeper .... well its simply cuz its striped down to the core ... the lyrics , their voice and the stroke of the guitar's strings

It doesn't matter how many people are around, if the one you want isn't there , you feel alone , like no-one is actually there 

Don't AssUme cuz you end up Making an Ass out of "U" and "me" ... you're an ass cuz you fell for your own lie ... And I'm an ass cuz I'm the reason for the tears in your eyes

when we're kids we can't wait to talk , say whats on our mind and express what we feel ... but as we grow up we rarely use words cuz we find out they meaning nothing at all :/

A True Friend Isn't Always The One You Knew The Longest ... But Rather The One Who Knows You Best ... The One That Understands You Without You Having To Talk .... The One That Know Who You Are Deep Inside ... They See Beyond The Mask You Wear .. They See You As Yourself And Not Who You Claim To Be 

When i'm ignoring you , that means i'm not in the mood to talk to YOU , but that doesn't mean i'm not in the mood to talk at all

 

 

Hanaa Al-Gawish

An apology

The fact is I apologize just to know that I did all what I could to Fix what I once did. It's not cuz I wanna feel better about myself nor is it to move on ; cuz I'll never be able to walk away guilt free after hurting a dear "SomeOne"

The reason I'm doing this is just cuz I wanna Remember that moment when I stood there in front of you and looked you in the eye and with a sincere tone told you those few words that were said by my heart

"I'm sorry, never meant to hurt you with my words"

 This not for me to feel better about what happened, but for you to know how sorry I am for once hurting you

So would you, would you just let me stand there and look you in the eye and apologize, I won't ask you to accept it cuz I know a lot of damage was done, and a long time passed, and it'll take time for us to heal and go back to where we were once, that is, If it wasn't too late to apologize

But all i want now is for you to HeaR it                               

All I want now is for you to FeeL it

I'M ReAlLY SorrY

Hanaa Al-Gawish

The Invisibleism

Dear world

   Welcome to the century of "The Invisibleism ". I know this word seems funny to you right now, but if you think about it for a second you'll see how true that word is and how much it applies to you

Nowadays we're in a new century where everyone is somehow invisible we're all fading away into dust. Humanity has somehow vanished and disappeared. I try to find a person to talk to but I find none, no-one is actually here.

Till this day I still think and I'm try to figure this out , is it me am I the problem , am I the reason of this failure I see , am I the one who's fading away , fading to dust , fading from this world and getting lost.

I feel as though I got erased from the book of life, they forgot to record me as alive. I'm just lost between the lines. If I wasn't recorded among the dead nor declared alive, how in this world may I survive.

Again I think was that my fault and where was I that day when they were counting the dead and alive. I wouldn't have minded if I was recorded among the dead at least that would mean I was once alive. That one day I walked around and I was noticed, that I had an affect on someone, someday, somewhere. That "I", "Me","Moi" Made a difference in life.

I need to know when did I turn invisible when was the day I fell out of the records , maybe if I knew when ,I'd know why , why am I an invisible soul , who can't be seen nor see people no more . When did I fall in this black hole?

In the end I still don't know what's wrong and why is everyone invisible. Is it that somewhere along this life we all forgot that we're alive, and felt as though we made no difference in life OR is it just "Me" who died and is still trying to realize that I'm no longer alive?

  

  

Hanaa Al-Gawish

Turning to the silent mode

Have you gone through a situation, where words just lose their meaning, you say the words but it’s like you didn’t even speak. Like words have turned into meaningless letters put together.

That’s when I choose to go into one of my silent modes , when my words fail me , I let my eyes speak . Cuz if you know me, you’ll see it in my eyes. And if you don’t then you’re not meant to understand.

But you know something; even if words still hold their meaning sometimes they’re not understood. Simply cuz people forgot the basic point in using their voice to speak. They forget that the tone says everything. Yet they choose to stick to a tone and let if define them, and usually they use an emotionless steady tone. and they blame me for getting lost and bored while they speak , is it my fault that I can’t feel the words you speak , that I feel no emotion even when you say “ I Love You “ .

I’m the type of person who feels their words, cuz I personally believe that every word has its own taste, texture, and scent. You may disagree, and say that they’re just letters that say just what they mean. But if that was the case then what the meaning of reading between the lines, and how would words have double meanings.

The truth is that words hold no meaning without the passion and emotion of whom, who says them, cuz every word holds the emotion of the - writer, speaker – and every letter they say, just hold it’s a part of them with it.

Hanaa Al-Gawish