Today I end another chapter in my book of life, but
something got me wondering this time, that there is a certain thing that i
start each chapter with , and it’s my determination to be someone else, each
year I realize that I gotta change in a new way , it’s a like a constant item
on my bucket list. I wanna grow closer to the person I dream of being, someone
who’s more mature, someone with a better view of life from the experiences I
got through.
Another thing that always seemed to be a part of the change
that happens every year is the sum of people in my life. It seems as though it follows a pattern, for
a year is a long time and a lot can happen through it. It seems like with every
year passing by I lose some of the people in my life and win others.
The people I lose can be categorized into 2 groups:-
Those who were lost cuz their time on earth ended, and it
was time for them to leave us for now, and wait for us up above in heaven. It
wasn’t there choice it’s just that they had no more ink to keep writing their
story. Those people will always have a place in my heart and their names will
always be mentioned in my prayers. I just hope they know that I really loved
them and they meant a lot to me even if I didn’t say it enough.
The other group are those who left by choice, they exist in
the world, but not in my life. Some of them were kind enough to write a few
lines to say it was the end; they were decent enough to tell me that they’re leaving.
But others left without a word no excuse no nothing, it’s like I woke up one
day and found them gone. I just hope they’re all doing fine and I hope them the
best in life, even those who left with no explanation , I guess they must have
had a reason for that.
So I hope them the best in life, and if any of them left
cuz I unintentionally hurt them, I wanna apologize, “I’m sorry if I ever hurt
you”
About the people who walked into my life, well I really
believe its fate, they were meant to enter my life for a reason. Some people I
never thought in a million years would be just friends became really close ones;
they somehow came into my life and became friends that affected my life. They
were the friends that brought back my smile and showed me that there is still
some good in the world. Others were destined to be my friends cuz with the
world playing some cards for us to be closer, we played the game and became a
part of each other’s lives, the world give us the reason and a way to know each
other better and we did.
So to sum it up I can say that with every year passing by I
lose a few people and win others … we can never figure out who’s leaving and
who’s staying we just have to take it as it is .
That’s actually the way it goes with our life, the glass is
actually never full nor is it empty. We’re not supposed to look at life as how
much we have or how much we don’t, you should just live it. The world is a game
of cards one day you’re the loser, and the next game you’re dealt the winning
hand and you take it all. As they say” The winner takes it all, the loser has
to fall, it’s simple and it’s plain, why should I complain?”
So why spend the rest of the day complaining about something
you can’t change, why do you cry about things you lost, accept the hand you’re
dealt and be sure that an unknown reason falls behind it. Think about a bad
situation you went through and try to look at a good thing that happened
because of it. Maybe that situation showed you who your real friends are, or
you found out how strong you really are. Just try to take of those black
glasses and see beyond the situation you’ll see that there is a good part in
every bad situation that you lived.
So plz just for the sake of it, try living the moment for
itself, a day may have a bad part and a good part so don’t look at it as an
amazing day nor was it a bad day. It’s just a day that had a mix of good and
bad moments. So smile when life is good to you, and cry when it hurts you. Live
it as it is don’t think too much….. Just live your life
Hanaa Al-Gawish
