ربنا يخليلى مامى

ربنا يخليلى مامى ^_^

هتقولولى انتى بتقولى مامى ياختى كميلة  , يابنتى ده انتى كبرتى دلوقتى  ومبقاش ينفع تقولى يا مامى زى الصغيرين

هقولكوا ببساطة لا هى مامى وهتفضل مامى لانى مهما كبرت هرجع للطفولة مع مامى . يعنى عايزين تقولولى انكوا مبقتوش بتروحلها لما تبقوا مدايقين . حتى لو محكتلهاش  اللى مزعلكوا , بس بتعدوا فى حضنها وتحسوا بالامان  ولما تعييوا بتقلبوا بابى عايز مامى جانبه عشان هو تعبان

لو انتوا مش كدة يبقى انتوا بتضحكوا على نفسكوا عشان كلنا مهما كبرنا بنفضل صغيرين مع امهاتنا

انا عشان بقعد بالشهور بعيد عن مامى عشان انا بكون فى مصر وهى فى هنا فى الامارات

عارفين يعنى ايه اكون بعيد عن مامى واول لما بنزل من الطيارة بجرى عليها زى البيبى واحضنها وبفضل طول الفترة اللى قاعدة فيها هنا عاملة زى البيبى اللى ماشى ورا مامته عمالة ارغى واحكى كل حاجة بتحصل معايا حتى لو حاجات عبيطة بس بكون عايزة ارغى معاها على قد ما اقدر

ماهو ده الطبيعى اصل هى اكتر حد فى الدنيا دى كلها فاهمنى حتى لو مقولتلهاش هى بتكون عارفة , ده حتى لو حاولت اخبى حاجة هى بتحس بيا دى مامى يعنى ولازم تفهمنى

وياه بقى لما اكون عايزة انزل اجيب هدوم ولا حاجة , بحب اروح معاها هى ومش مع اى حد تانى هتقولوا عليا بيبى ماشى ومالو طالما مع مامى قولوا عليا اللى انتوا عايزنه , انا بحب اروح معاها ونكون انا وهى بس وهى عارفة ده عشان كدة لما بكون عايزة انزل اجيب حاجة بتاخدنى لوحدى عشان اجيب حاجاتى , ما اصل هى اللى عارفة الستايل بتاعى وبعدين حقى ادلع على مامتى

ربنا يخليكى ليا يا مامى , ما انا اصل مش عارفة انا ممكن اقعد من غيرك ازاى اصلى بحبك بجد اكتر حاجة فى الكون يمكن مش بقولهالك كتير ده انا حتى نادرا لما بقولك بحبك بس انا عارفة انك بتحسيها ما انتى عارفة اللى بحسوا من غير مااقولهالك فى كلام 

و صحيح اديني بقولك من دلوقتي انا هفضل بيبي معاكي مهما كبرت . مانا لو مش هدلع عليكي هدلع على مين, ما انت اللي عمرك ما هتسبيني و علطول هتدلعيني

و اهم حاجة بقى اقولهالك " انا بحببببببببببك و ربنا يخليكي ليا . يا احلى و اجمل ام فى الدنيا دى

هناء جاويش  

The meeting

I had this meeting with a group of young ladies, they always got me confused, cuz they had nothing in common, yet they were always seen together. the meeting took place in a small café , I sat there and across me sat 4 young beautiful young ladies , and just for the sake of this story let’s call them -   Shane , Jessica , Ashley , Sophie -

now let me tell you a lil about each one of them , so you would get why they got me confused .

Shane : she’s that girl who’s always dressed in black or anything dark,  she’s a tough girl , with that invincible look ,she’s  got that hate the world , need nobody attitude.  She’s like the one who got every ones back. I use to think she’s the leader, but found out she wasn’t. It’s just that when things get tough she steps up to whoever is harassing her friends.
To be truthful I kinda get scared in her presence, cuz she’s got that raging look that just send chills down my spine 

Jessica:  oh Jessica she’s just the girl you need when it’s dull and sad. She’s the most chilled girl I ever met, I feel that the reason she lives is to laugh and joke. It’s like she lives in a totally different word, she cares about nothing even if everything is screwed up she finds a way to crack a joke about what’s happening. She’s like the bundle of joy to that group, cuz when things get tough, she just easies the situation and saying something to break the ice.
Frankly I think she’s high most of the time, cuz I never saw her without a wide smile, and that loud hilarious laugh.

 Ashley: cute lil Ashley is just your shy girl next door type of girl. She’s too shy that she blushed when I look her in the eye, she’s cute and so sweet but she has a really low self-esteem. She gets nerves with change. She’s the groups lil kid cuz she’s so fragile and just a few words can break her down. She’s the girl you wanna have as a friend, but it’s not that easy to gain her trust.

I just hope to get to know her more, cuz she’s just to most loving, caring person I ever got to meet.

Sophie: miss. Smart ass, if Shane is the muscles of this group, then for sure Sophie is the brains. It seems like she know something about everything, and whatever you throw at her, she’s got a smart comeback to it. It’s like with her every problem has a solution, you start talking to her and she’ll read your mind, know your problem, explain it to you, and give you your available options.

You want a free therapist, who’ll help you with whatever you’re facing; well that’s your girl

After I’ve told a lil bit about each one of them , do you see why I feel that they’re a weird group , but somehow still they’re always together . If you choose to get to know one of them, become friends with her, you gotta know the other too, it’s a rule they have, if you wanna be friends with them. You have to be friends with the whole group not just one.

 One more thing if you ever have an argument with any of them they all get affected. So for example if you had an argument with Sophie about anything, Shane would get upset and may hurt someone - it may even be herself - she’ll be a rage of anger, that’ll affect the whole group. Ashley will break into tears, fainting from sadness and being hurt.  Jessica will just go numb and feel nothing, spreading an emotionless vibe among the group. And Sophie will just analyze everything that’s happening and blaming the whole group and herself for what went wrong, creating facts showing it was the groups fault.

So how many of you would wanna get to know this group, how many could handle being with all those characters. They’re a lot to take, but they’re nice to know. Now after you’ve thought about it, do you think you can get close to them or not.

Oh yea and one thing I forgot to mention to you, they’re not 4 girls, and they’re not a group. They’re just one person, they are me. Cuz somehow I’m a person with many different personalities.  Not a lot of people can handle that, they like one or two of my different characters, but they can’t handle the 4 of them at once. I can’t blame them for getting tired of this crowded group, they’re not easy to handle. I know that cuz with every other situation, one of them reacts, and that’s not easy to handle I know that for a fact. 

Hanaa Al-Gawish

Happy NeW Perspective

First of all HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE , hope this year is a start of an amazing year ahead , with new doors of happiness being opened in your face .

                                 

So let’s start this New Year with a new vision towards life, let’s look at the world in a different way, from a more optimistic perspective.  
Why not start by changing one thing about someone’s life, every single day of yours. I’m not saying that you should be the cause of a drastic change in someone’s life, but just a lil gesture that would make a lil difference in their day, and draw a smile on their face.

You may ask lil gestures!! like what, well that’s simple, you could start by smiling in people’s faces. Why walk around with a frown and a hate the world attitude, if you could smile and love the world. Even if you’re having the worst day ever, you should try to smile and try find a good thing about life to look at.

Try to be a person who’s there for other people when they need you, remember how many times you were in a situation where you just wished to have someone there with you. How many times you need just to feel a lil bit of care from anyone to prove that good still exists.

So why not be that person for someone, and become the thread that someone could hold on to.

So today make a deal, not with me nor with anyone, make a deal with yourself, cuz You are the person who deserves it the most. Cuz a promise and a deal with yourself is a deal that would never be broken, you can break your word to others, but can you break Your word to Yourself!!!, I don’t think so.

So here is the deal, Promise yourself to be the reason for your smile, if you couldn’t find someone to be that reason for you. Love who you are cuz no-one in the world will love you like you do.
Your future is your choice, you choose which path you wanna take and that’s the future you’re going to see. Stop depending on people and depend on yourself.

Start this year by taking back your life in your hand

Hanaa Al-Gawish

No Signal

I look at the world we live in today, and I wonder how did we get to this. We have a thousand social sites to keep us connected, but somehow the connection is lost.  They were made to keep us in tune with each other, but they became the reason of the connection lost.

We live now behind the screens but our own signal is lost, we forgot the meaning of human connection. Now you’re best friends are a laptop, a BlackBerry, and for sure the Wi-Fi.

It’s like we no longer have connection with the outside world, you even forget how to talk and have a proper conversation with someone face-to-face. Turning to a poker face with no emotion, your voice tone means nothing.

You still wonder where did the emotions go, well I’ll tell you dear, they simply disappeared behind the tech screens. Your emotions turned into meaningless lil- emoticones that you don’t do, you just choose a face and click send, but it’s not the emotion that your face truly shows

So get up and forget the tech and remember your human self, get out and leave your cell home. There is a whole life out there beyond that screen. 

Btw I never meant that tech is bad, or that it’s the real reason behind the lost emotion, but what I mean is people shouldn’t live through their screens. They should go out and see the streets, stop caving in behind someone they’re not.

I’ve known a lot of people with amazing personalities that are too scared to face the real world, but they’re like stars behind a key bored and a screen. They should learn how to face the world and not be scared to be themselves. It’s okay to be shy – blushing from nothing – but what’s not okay is hiding behind a screen, so that people won’t see who you are.

So would you try this for a day, switch off your cell – whether it’s a BlackBerry , iPhone ,  mobile – shut down your laptop , and just go out and meet some people you haven’t been in touch with for a while , or meet a group of friends , go watch a live play or a book reading . If you like sports set a game with some friends, or take a jog around your block, get that bike out of storage and take it for a ride.

Live Your Life Out Side The Box, And See What’s Beyond That Screen 

Hanaa Al-Gawish

Breaking through

Have ever felt like you’re stuck between the walls of your mind, that you’re a prisoner of yourself. You’ve built walls around you thinking they will keep you safe, but those walls were built from bricks of memories. So every time you look around you’re hurt cuz they remind you where you’ve been, and who you lost.

You’re just hurting yourself with pain of yesterday, you think that’s your safe, but you’re wrong, cuz your breaking you own heart, drowning in tears of the past.

Tonight is the time to break through those walls , it’s time for you to spread your wings and fly , see the world of colors , and get out of this dark , cold prison your stuck in. it’s not too late to switch on the lights again , and take your life back in your hands again .

Today  will be the day you come back to life again, I never said it would be easy, nor that life is easy and “a pinky pink “place to live in. but you gotta use the colors of your soul and paint your world , draw a smile on your lips , learn how to laugh . Live for yourself and not anyone else, cuz you’re the writer, director and main character. So it’s in your hand to write a drama, a comedy, or even a sweet fairytale.  

People keep on forgetting that the road of life is theirs to paint, not for someone else to paint it for you. They put others as the center of the story and when they fade their story fails. I don’t mean that you gotta walk alone , it’s just that people who walk with you , should know they’re visitors in your life . That they are there to admire your painting not to judge you on it.

Break through the shell of darkness and face the world; be fearless, cuz if you had the strength to stay all these years locked up alone, then you have the strength to walk to the top of this world on your own.

                               
Hanaa Al-Gawish

Trust

have you ever wondered why the presence of a certain person around just gives you comfort like you’re safe now , and nothing can happen to you . Its cuz you trust them, you have faith in them, that just by them showing up, you just know deep inside that even if anything went wrong, they are there, and they can fix it.

It’s always said that the hardest thing to do in life is to trust someone with your life , but I disagree , it’s not that hard , you just to find a person who’s worth that trust , someone that you have faith in .

Mostly the person you begin to trust is someone who walked in and stayed when everyone chose to leave. Someone who had faith in you, when everyone said you’re a disappointment. Someone that got you to believe in yourself again.
                                                  

I know I’ll get asked well is the fact that they walked in and helped you out, a reason enough to have complete trust in them. The answer is simple, it “No “. This is just a key point, cuz if they stuck around when they didn’t have to, and then they would stick around when you need them too. those who you should trust have to be the ones that know you the most , and when I say know you , I mean the real you , that hidden behind the masks and scars . The you that’s rarely seen but is hiding there deep inside you.  They are the ones that know how to calm you down when you’re in stress, and can understand you without speaking. They’re the ones that feel you heart, and know that pain of your scars.

I personally believe that trust is the key to any relation, it’s not love. Simply cuz you love the people you trust, but you don’t always trust the people you love.  Cuz with trust comes faith, safety and comfort.

Find someone worth your trust , and when you do find them hold on to them , cuz they’re the wall you can lean on, the shoulders you cry on , the hand that picks you up when you’re down , arms with a warm embrace , and a chest where you can lay your head and rest .

Hanaa Al-Gawish

                                           

Stereotyping

I’m seriously tired of this, all the issues that are built on the bases of nothing, all the judgment that is set on no ground.

Why do we keep judging each other on every action we do, we throw hurtful words, filled with venom, and expect the person to accept them. Who gave you the right to do such a thing, hurting another human being?

Stereotype and outcast , why do we do that , why do we put every person a category  as though we’re a group of books , and who ever doesn’t fit one of those standards is an outcast and has no place in the world .

How could you limit me to one character and say that who I am , if the truth is I’m not that , I’m a person , who has different characteristics and I switch moods . that who I’m , and I never told you  that you should be like me because that’s not how to goes around  .

We’re individuals that means that every one of us has his/her individuality, everyone is their own mixture of traits and experience and so much more. So how do you expect us to fit a certain category?

One other thing that really pisses me off about that stereotype nonsense is why some groups are considered superior to others. They are believed to be better that other and act that why , I never  quite understood that part . why are they considered better what about them makes them superior .

Last but not least are the bases of this judgment, usually a person in judged on their external appearance, regardless of the goals, feeling , and  personality of the individual . though the external looks of people , rarely shows who they truly are .
( you may find a sport jock who loves to dance , a b-boy whose great in school , a smart gurl who knows how to part )
so how could you judge a person by just one part of who they are .

Hanaa Al-Gawish