I always thought that we as people stand on solid ground, and the times when we’re having problems we fall into a bottomless pit. I guess it’s cuz of all those quotes out there saying that we stand on solid ground. Recently I was deeply thinking about this theory and I just realized it’s wrong, we aren't standing on anything. We are just hanging on top of a cold dark bottomless pit, we’re hanging by a couple of strings, and the number of strings holding you up is inversely related to the chance of you falling. So the more strings you have to hold you the lower the chance of you falling.
You may start wondering what are those strings holding you and why are you even hanging or that pit. Well let me explain it to you this way, as we all know life is never easy, even the happy parts of it aren’t that easy either. So how could that possibly mean that we have a solid ground?!? In life we always have to struggle through some tough moments, we’re always trying to get somewhere, or get someone, or even do something, but there is always something that we’re trying to do. So I guess you can agree that life isn’t an easy comfortable ground to stand on, you can’t just stand there relaxed. Cuz life is not an easy trip we’re taking, it’s a hard test that we’re always trying to pass, and the beauty of it is that it isn’t just one little test that you can rest after, it’s a series of quizzes, tests, pop quizzes that you don’t even see coming and some hard unexpected exams. Now look down underneath you and see that there is no ground, you can’t even find a tiny spot just to put your foot on, to take a minute of rest. Every once In a while you’ll feel like you’re falling deeper in that pit, and you feel that cold chill of the roaring darkness. Some other times you’ll feel like you’re rising above that pit, and somehow you feel a warm embrace of a sincere emotion of an anonymous voice tone.
Those things that lift you up and let you sink, those are the strings that hold you and keep you from falling. Those strings are people, things, situations, and so much more. Let’s talk more about those strings and why are they strings and who are they, or what they are.
The who are those strings are people that matter in your life, either friends, family or even loved ones, they are the people who believe in you and make you believe in yourself . A string that forms in your life is the hand you hold on to, that person you count on and depend on. That person who believes in you and shows you that the world isn’t that dark place you were stuck in, that person who affects your life in a positive way. That moment you hold their hand and lean on them, that’s when they become your string, that’s when you feel that warm embrace in their voice tone, that’s when you start feeling safe. Actually this is the only string that rarely breaks, cuz the only way to break that string is when both people cut their end of it. So that’s the only string you can actually depend on to keep you from falling.
The what are those strings are the things that give you confidence in yourself, the things you see as the positive part of your life, it could be a job you have, a hobby or talent you express yourself through, even your academic statues. They are just the things that hold you higher, its sometimes your financial statues, you feel confident cuz of the car you ride, the apartment you’re staying in, just knowing that you can have what you would wish to purchase gives you a sort of confidence so it’s definitely a string. So according to this theory anything that gives you a boost to rise is a string that will pull you up.
The worst part about those strings is that sometimes they just break, and as agreed life a'int easy so when one string breaks a couple more get torn too. You feel a sudden shock of falling down that pit with an incredible speed, you just feel the strings slipping through your fingers and you realize that you’re in for the fall. The saddest and toughest part of that is when your “who” strings break, when the string you’ve put a high bet on to save you, slip away and break on you. So you’re just collapsing and falling with nothing to hold on to, so look around for just a tine thin string that could save you, but from the fear of the fall, you’re seeing nothing around you nothing at all. You’re heart starts to beat faster than ever, you’re mind in playing tapes of memories, and you feel like you’re life is just about to end tonight.
Now you’re just falling and all what you hear around is the sound of your breathing and the beating of your heart. You feel a cold chill of loneliness, and the roaring of an aching heart. Time stops and you see a tiny thread attached to your heart, and that’s what keeps you from falling and hitting the ground. It may seem like the weakest string, the most fragile one but somehow it’s the only string that would never break, or let you go. You may be wondering now about that string and what or who string this is, and why is it that strong though it’s that tiny.
Well let me tell you, that string is the string of your heart, your soul, that string of your existences, it’s the “ME” string, it’s that little voice that tells you never to give up, it’s the courage that allows you to go into battles fearlessly, its you’re inner believe in the higher power *GOD*. That’s the only reason why you never feel the crash of falling down and the pain of breaking, you just feel a replaying fear of the fall, the rush of the falling, the coldness of a lonely soul but that’s all. You never experience that actual hit; you just imagine it in the darkest, roughest, scariest image. The only thing that stops that fall every time is your string, it can’t lift you up but it just leaves you hanging. When you start believing in yourself that string gets stronger, and if you have enough patience maybe just maybe, a hand will hold yours and pull you up again. Allow you to see the sunshine again, shows you that your heart can sing, touches you with a warm embrace and gets you the rise to the top again.
Hanaa Al-Gaiwsh
